.:smudged musings:.

.drawn in pencil. ..erasing...

Wed, 02 Nov 2011 04:55:00 -0700

                                   .drawn in pencil.
                                ..erasing mistakes..
                              .sketching new lines.

                             .smudging away faults.
             ..the bad swept away with a stroke..
           .drew in pencil.

.perfection expected.

Supplicate

Thu, 14 Oct 2010 13:10:09 -0700

Shall I peel you apart, layer by layer
until you are naked for me. Hands tremble as I
reach for you. Lips parting as my mouth salivates
for a taste of you. This fiery hunger that burns
me to the very core.

I beg of you, feed me your soul. Let me drink of your
mouth. The taste of you filling me. For this
intense craving can not be filled. It is placated
for brief moments and then ignited once more.

©lavishtorment

Mask

Fri, 20 Aug 2010 20:27:20 -0700

Take off my mask you say

Revel myself you say

I hide myself behind a facade of what wants to be seen.

The truth hidden but reveled if you ever looked close enough.

You ask me to strip myself bare. To risk.

How do I know you won’t run when you see what is there.

The ugliness that is in me.

The insecurity that makes up this woman.

To shatter the illusion would lose me everything.

©lavishtorment

over you

Thu, 19 Aug 2010 20:26:17 -0700

I am over you.
Feel my heat
Looking down into your eyes.
Luring you under my spell.

©lavishtorment

If You Forget Me

Sun, 15 Aug 2010 17:42:00 -0700

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms

by Pablo Neruda

(Just because I have always loved this poem)

used

Sat, 07 Aug 2010 18:57:57 -0700

bent, broken, body mangled
laying there spread-eagle
semen puddles on the ground
the remnants of your rape
drip from exposed bruised raw parts.
unmoving, unfeeling
the wastrel of relics

©lavishtorment

Cold

Sat, 07 Aug 2010 18:53:14 -0700

pieces of nails, shattered
scratching down the cold walls
the constant screaming
echoing within the
empty cavernous corpse

your presence is felt
the cold claw of your talon
ripping at flesh

those taunting eyes of
hollowed black
seeing all
seeing nothing

©lavishtorment

Teach Me

Wed, 04 Aug 2010 09:07:18 -0700

Teach me how to breathe. Press your lips to mine, fill me with your air. Then take my own as you wrap your hands around my neck. Squeezing as you ravish my mouth. Show me no mercy as you take. Teach me how to breathe, so that I can fill myself with you.

©lavishtorment

a kiss

Tue, 03 Aug 2010 18:48:07 -0700

How I want you
To strip you naked, then cover you
with my hands. Tracing each line of
your body. Those hard muscles flexing
beneath my loving touch. The sharp intake
of breath as I lean close to cover your
mouth with mine. Tongue pressed between lips,
flicking over against your tongue. Drawing you deep
into me as I taste every last part of your
heated wetness. Feel me as I devour. The tip
of tongue running along your gums, over the crown
of teeth, up against the roof of your mouth. Then
tangling in a passionate kiss.

©lavishtorment

Journey

Tue, 03 Aug 2010 17:53:50 -0700

Journey with me; through time as our souls seek out one
another. To find the other, becoming whole once more.
It’s like we’ve never parted, a continuing love that
merely grows. No matter how rough the roads or how twisted they become
our love will continue it’s journey, finding it’s soul mate.

©lavishtorment

Broken Glass

Mon, 02 Aug 2010 20:49:00 -0700

from bleeding eyes,
do they fall
shards of broken glass

tumbling over filthy dermis
shredding chucks of what used to be
vital fluids run,
the searing agony of pain
welcoming it with full embrace
to take me from this hollowed place.

silent pleas to the unseen eyes
lips parting to scream.
an empty voice of what was
or never has been
forever bound to bleed

©lavishtorment

free us

Mon, 02 Aug 2010 20:25:11 -0700

You make me breathless
Take my air, fill me with your love
Consume the deepest part of me.
Share with me the beast that lies within you
Free it… Free me…
Send us spiraling into the abyss of passions untold.

©lavishtorment

Will you allow me in

Mon, 02 Aug 2010 20:17:00 -0700

Will you allow me in?
Will you allow me to flow into your mind
wrapping myself around firing neurons, tangling your
thoughts with images of me.
Will you allow me to flow in your veins?
Feel me as I push through with every beat of your
heart. Filling your body with me. Consuming you with
my love.
Will you allow me in? Will you open yourself to all
that I represent. Will you risk the unknown.

©lavishtorment

I give

Tue, 27 Jul 2010 21:08:29 -0700

I give…
Into the strong hand that guides
I give…
of barest flesh
I give…
all that I am, imperfections and flaws
and still you take…
You are still there in the night, hand held out to hold me.

I give all…
that I can, trusting that you will keep me safe.

Flay me open

Tue, 27 Jul 2010 15:00:30 -0700

I’m burning inside.
Wanting to rip the skin from my bones.
To have each layer tossed to the ground.
The burn consumes me. I can’t control it,
it wants to be fed. Needs to be stroked turned into
a raging fire.

I sit here and close my eyes, wishing it away. Taking
a breath, and it calls to me. It taunts me with it’s
kiss.

The craving so intense that it makes my mind reel
out of control with need.

Feed this beast in me.
Feed her now, show her whose in control.

Take her; rape her, make her bleed. See her shoved to her knees
dragged across the floor and still shove her down further.

Nails dig into my palms, fighting to rake them over
my legs, to rip away my own flesh. Giving the beast what she needs.

I’m lost, consumed. I need to be flayed opened.

Sticky Sweet Sticky sweet goodness, how you call to me. Teasing...

Sun, 25 Jul 2010 15:15:00 -0700

Sticky Sweet

Sticky sweet goodness, how you call to me.
Teasing me with your roundness, that glossy stare
I hear you call to me, luring me in with you scent of tantalizing deliciousness
I give into the temptation, my self control is gone
twirling you in my fingers, eyes longingly look at you.
ever so slowly I pull you to my parched lips. Running over the contours of my mouth.
My tongue takes a flick, eyes closing, releasing a pleasure groan. How your taste washes over me.
lips parting, pressing you between.
fingers twirl you around and around. The wetness of my tongue unleashing your flavors
oh yes, come to me. come to me, you delicious beast.
I pull you deep into my mouth. My tongue rolling over you, consuming you. Not a spot is left untouched.
I am drowning.
Take me.
Take me to that place of sticky sweetness.

swathed

Fri, 23 Jul 2010 10:04:06 -0700

swathe me, cold embrace.
shield the silent cries that fill your walls.
for i am merely the vessel of your laughter.
Of your mocked cold stare.

swathe me in the darkness of your mind.
As grey matter becomes mere putty for your game.
your voice ripping, tossing aside those ugly parts.

oh darkness. oh darkness
end this misery of pain.
end your constant taunting.
end your mockery of my
pain.

©lavishtorment

Can I feel you

Fri, 23 Jul 2010 06:01:10 -0700

Can I feel you, you ask?

Do you feel the beat of your heart as thoughts of me fill you. Do you feel the kiss of the wind as it brushes past you? Do you feel the warmth of the sun as it showers down it’s warmth.

All of things are so much more are what I feel. You are in them as I am. Through the miles that part us, these things are shared. These things are felt.

Your love touches me from afar, over the waves of space. Through the electrical lines, that leave a shocking mark on my soul when your voice is heard.

Yes, I feel you.

I feel you with every breath I take; With every smile that grows across my soft lips.

I feel you

©lavishtorment

Held Tight

Thu, 22 Jul 2010 13:37:19 -0700

When your arms encircle me, I’m safe.
The worries of the world disappear
and all there is, is the gentleness of your
touch.

Unspoken words, shared between soft glances.
The gentle touch of hands as they intertwine
with one another. The peaceful serenity of
love. To feel this content; a sullen sigh
shared between fervent kisses.

heedless, as the shaking of the cruel cold
world invades. The very foundation rocked.
The uncontrollable rolling of waves, threatening
to rip apart those secure binds.

fingers cling, holding by the barest of strings.
panting for breath, eyes wide, filling with fight.
Those secure feelings slowly fading
holding tight to what was, hoping like
hell that when then intrusion passes and
the debris is swept away.

We are there

Red Tip

Wed, 21 Jul 2010 19:06:38 -0700

doused with your desire.
You strike the red tip, as the
flames burns bright. Ready
to ignite the passions, the
burning ache.

How it will consume, engulfing
all in it’s path. Unaware,
without a care of the infliction
it will leave on it’s path of
destruction.

The smell of passion, charred
beyond recognition. seared flesh
falling from the bone. The mere
skeleton of what she was, of what
would be no more

a mere corpse that laid there asphyxiated by
your passion